Jersey Update

Well..... that's all I have to say about this place!!! Its soooo different, seriously I totally see why people don't leave Cali!! I wish I didn't!!! Work has been the hardest month in my retail career ever. I have had the hardest time wearing every single hat. I was the Store Manager, the co manager, the in store visual Merchandiser, training manager and a sales assoc, and still trying to live a normal life in a new area. It was soo difficult and still has been these last few weeks. But most recently I have had an asst manager quit no notice and earlier that week the other asst turned in her two weeks. I was going to go bald!!! I wanted to rip my hair out!! But, amazingly a guy walked in the same day because the store he worked at just closed and he lost his job. What a complete blessing! He started today as my New Asst Manager!! Thank goodness one down and one to go.  The 4th was fun but very weird.  It was a first without any type of family around at all. It was really hard and kind of depressing. I missed the kids swimming and having a BBQ with friends and Family. I missed Eric cooking something he found in his cancer causing cookbook( its a cook book from Marlboro). I miss talking with my sis in law about how ridiculous my bro can me. But most of all I missed the love surrounding me. This has been a harder experience that I ever thought it was going to be. I never realized how much it mean to me to always be around for the people that mean the most to me. One of the sadist days so far was missing Liza's baby girl Teagan being born. I cried and was so upset that I couldn't be there for such an important day in her life. And the fact that I don't get to hold her till she 3 months old. It was a very hard day but she knows how much I was there in spirit.  And then there is Michael.... wow I haven't seen him in a little over 2 months now. I cant believe that. I miss him a ton.  I was soo desperately hoping that he would make it for the 4th but he couldn't. That's was such a bummer. But I know this was and experience I had to take so I wouldn't wonder what if in the future.  Work has been improving each day and I know it will get better.  We have a really big visit soon in Aug with the owner of the company. I just want to shock him and have an amazing store.  So wish me luck!! But my personal life is hanging by a thread. I thank God everyday that i have Sarah out here to have a friend, and she is going through the same thing. I'm Glad i can be here for her too.  Andrew who is Sarah Fiance is in the Coast Guard and just left for 2 months again. She wont see him till  a week before they get married in Sept. I can imagine that. So i happy that we can help one another through this hard, crazy experience in our lives.   

Ok well some positives are I just got this amazing beach cruiser and I totally love it!!  isn't it the cutest bike. Tell me why it was so hard to spend $300 on a bike but I can buy shoes and handbags like nothing( for those who know me well understand what i mean) It was the hardest decision but now I am glad I did! i love going on rides with Sarah and saving on gas around town.

     

We Cruise to the beach, which by the way you have to pay for them here!??? Crazy right?? when have we ever had to pay to go on a beach?? ummm NEVER!!! But its been nice living right down the street from it! Ocean City has a very Cali feel to the area and its kind of like Santa Monica and Newport. There is a really cool boardwalk and all kinds of rides shopping and restaurants. They have the most amazing pizza out here and the best cheesesteaks! I love the Pizza steak its my two favorite things in one  a sandwich and pizza!!!

The hardest thing is everyday I wake up wanting to go home, then I have a better day at work and its not so bad until I have a bad encounter with a Jerz. That's what I call them.  A Jerz.   Oh ya I totally forgot that everyone, I mean everyone chews gum like crazy and smacks their gum in your face!! AHHH it makes me cringe thinking about it!! That is the number one thing that bugs me everyday.  Even adults... I mean you're a human not a cow. chew with your mouth closed. ugh!

I didn't finally get a bed! yay!! and this huge dresser from ikea. And if you have ever put together anything from Ikea you def understand its a process of pictures and huhs??? I took me 4 hours!! But I was super proud of myself after that.  So slowly but surely I am getting settled. Another amazing thing about out here is that there is no sales tax on essential items like clothing, food, shoes.  That so totally rocks!! i love it! Plus I just got the Wii Active and it rocks! I did it for around 20 min and I was so sore the next day! I love it!! You all have to try it!

More than anything I'm so Glad that I have a hobby. It may be sewing but this is the last Blanket I made for Teagan and her new one is on the way!! Its too cute I can't wait to send it to Liza and Teagan! its sooo cute. I will post a pic when its complete and after she gets it! 

More than anything....... I miss all of you reading this. I miss hearing Bitties run up and saying my name, i miss watching Squeaker fight with Bitties, I miss seeing Danielle and Taylor in their swim meets, my grandma and grandpa, my Mom and I just watching TV together and my dad and I arguing because we are soo much alike. Well not so much arguing but just my Dad. Even those that i didn't hang out with all the time but the fact is i really appreciate everything i have ever done with all of you. And thank you soo much to those of you praying for me during this hard time. It has helped more than you know.  I am making sure that i take each day as it goes and just hope for the best and when the time is right I will be on my way home or who knows??? Believe me I wish I knew. For the first time in my life I really don't know what I want to do right now. It's really hard and I'm letting go and letting God. I still feel I was supposed to take this opportunity to learn something and I don't want to give up by all means but  I just want to be happy.  

That's what I have for now but hopefully it will get better!! 

I LOVE AND MISS YOU ALL!!!!

♥Me! 

xoxo